Struggling dealing with these roller coaster emotions.
My emotions have been a roller coaster during this past week. I haven’t felt like myself and just kind of off, even when I’m not in the depths of depression. I’m sure my family and friends are looking forward to my early menopause (that’s sarcasm, folks).
Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and think of what could go right. - Unknown
I had a little pick me up today. I found a blog. Not quite what I was looking for, but besides her aversion to mushrooms, we eerily have quite a bit in common. This post: http://ididthelaundry.wordpress.com/2008/11/19/mastectomy/ is the one that sold me, though. I actually daydream of her exact experience regularly. WHO does this to herself?? Then she wrote this: http://ididthelaundry.wordpress.com/2009/08/12/this-deserves-a-post-all-by-itself/ (almost a year later) and answered her own question. The more I read the more respect I gained for her.
I am so thankful for the women that embarked on this journey before me and were willing to make their experiences public. I know that they probably felt as I do right now – if I just touch (or help) one person, then this was totally worth all of the time and energy that I put into it. Even if it is the comfort of my experience when they are looking at the road ahead. It doesn’t have to be life changing, just the knowledge that in this community of mutants, we understand the ups and downs and you are not alone. Bonus that I have a place that I can call mine to vent and work through my own feelings and challenges.
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