Still learning how to live with cancer and battle depression as my journey continues while other's do not.
I'm almost six years out from my very first surgery to prevent my BRCA mutation from forming into breast cancer. When I was approaching that surgery I was obsessed with blogs. Obsessed. One of my biggest frustrations is that once the recovery ended, so did the blog. What happened to these women? Were they still alive? Did the surgery work? Were they cancer free?
I am so very happy to report that I am cancer free as I write this post. The surgeries worked. My breasts are alive and well. I've moved on with my life and I've continued living my life in good health and with little fear of cancer. And that is why most people don't continue to post. Their lives return to their normal and they would rather move forward and continue to be alive then continually revisit their previous obstacles.
Timing is everything. When you are really ready for it, it will come. - Unknown
Unfortunately, that doesn't mean that the road after recovery was smooth. Yes, I am cancer free, but my best friend lost her battle with cancer this year at the age of 50. Cancer still continues to surround me, to take the lives of those I love. Losing Claudia was more difficult than I can put into words and has changed my life completely.
As I am battling through the depression and loneliness associated with this loss, I'm finding myself lost. I've lost my voice. I've lost my fight. I've lost my conviction. I've lost any will to kick cancer's butt.
And then the email arrived. "So-and-so gave me your name and I wanted to see if you could educate our group on organic, natural processes". The first reason that this email was significant is that I have been trying to begin speaking and educating on the importance of organic products and natural remedies, so this would be my first gig (yay!) and hopefully will lead to others. The second reason is that they want me to speak on January 17th. Exactly six years from the date of my first surgery - my double mastectomy.
Hint, hint. Nudge, nudge. Educate and inform on how important natural and organic choices are to prevent or cure cancer or lessen the pain and discomfort from the medication and battle. Take a minute of January 17th to live your dream, to find your voice, to find your fight, just like you did six years ago on January 17th.
I'll keep you posted!
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