Counting blessings...
I can't help but to feel blessed. I'm past what terrified me only a short month ago. I still can't believe how great my surgery went and how smooth my recovery has been.
I fully realize that it's not over yet. This DIEP surgery was the one that terrified me. It was what toyed with my emotions and created a monster within me. Now that I'm past it, I can't help but look back with a sense of relief, of accomplishment.
What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessing in disguise. - Oscar Wilde
I also can't help but to see all of the wonderful blessings in my life. By now, everyone knows that Sarah means the world to me. She is an amazing person. But it did take a village. I had everyone from acquaintances to best friends to family reaching out and helping.
Jason and his mom were incredible. They kept the house running and managed to care for me in the meantime. They were waiting on me (out of necessity) and chasing two crazy active boys for hours. They did it so effortlessly, it amazed me.
Of course, they would have never survived without Karen and the entire Wood family. They are my kids second family and managed to make the boys time away from me fun and exciting. Instead of being passed between family and friends and making a long, confusing week for the boys, the Woods took them in and gave them a constant home, making it much easier on Jason to travel to Columbus. They gave my boys a sense of security that I know we would have never found elsewhere.
I had friends and family sending me balloons, flowers, and general well wishes. I still receive cards daily from friends, hospital staff, and even friends of friends. These moments that people took to send me their thoughts were a bright spot in every single day. I even had friends send "dinner" (cash in a card for pizza) which came in handy the very next night. Whenever I needed or wanted anything, someone would instinctively provide.
I've felt so cursed for six years. I've felt trapped and defeated. Now I realize that it was the opposite. I am so blessed. I thought that this would be one of the toughest periods of my life. I was so wrong. This is an amazing time in my life. I get this wonderful outpouring of love and precious time with my friends and family. I spent so much time and energy preparing for the worst, I couldn't focus enough to see the possibility of anything fantastic. I'm just thankful that I realized it as I am living it and didn't let it all pass me by.
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